In life there are a lot of mysteries that we will never know. One of the being dreams, what do they mean, why do we have them, and are they are mind warning us of something? These past couple of days i have been doing a lot of thinking about this and why God gave us dreams. What does he want us to do with them, if anything at all?
I dont want to go into to much detail about my dream because it's rather personal and i don't know who exactly reads these blogs. In my dream there is this person who I havn't seen in at least four years, but I care deeply about this person (always have and always will) and I see this person and its like we never left eachother. I've been having this dream two nights in a row, and the other day my friend shane brang up this person out of know where like almost he knew my dream before I could even tell him. To add to this I found out today that this person who I have been dreaming about is coming back into town next week for christmas...
Why, is the question I keep asking myself. Why out of no where do I all of a sudden start dreaming about this person who I have not seen nor talked to in so long? Is this some sort of sign God is trying to give to me? or is this just some wierd phenomina that humans have, just meaningless dreams...
please i would really like some feed back on this on what you guys feel about this, even if i dont know you, i would still like your input... and if anyone had any sort of professional knowledge about dreams would also come in handy as well... please help me out.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Where Life is going (continued....)
Since "Where life is going" was so long I decided to break this part off into its own post of its own... This is my friend trouble i've been struggling with...
Another subject that has been killing me is the subject of my two best friends, Shane and Aku. These two guys mean the world to me and i would HONESTLY not have to hesitate to take a bullet for one of these guys. Ya a lot of people say they would take a bullet for someone, but me i realistically mean it, if i had to i would END MY life just for them to live... A few months ago one of them left for college, aku. It was one of the hardest things ever for me to do is just let go and watch him leave for Long Beach. The night b4 he left Shane, Aku, and i just sat at starbucks drinking some coffee and smoking some cigs (like we would always do for so long b4 he left) not saying one word, but rather just enjoying the company of eachother for one last time. It killed me, that night i cried and cried and cried when i got home. Me and Aku have been best friends since the 2nd grade (when we were only 7 yrs. old) and now we're 18 and 19 years old........... And now my other best friend shane is here with me and its been me and him together since aku left. Shane and I have been best friends since we were 5 years oldd. The thing is though he's in a band, with aku, and they're finally starting to hit that point in the band where there striving to get signed and now can almost taste it and while i'm SOO happy for them because its been Shanes dream since the 7th grade, i also find myself scared and sad. If they do get signed and go on a tour my only friend left will also be leaving me and i'll end up alone. And it scares me to death, the thought of being alone with no body, especially without my 2 best friends who i've had my entire life with me since i was 5 and 7 and to think of life without them... i just cant imagine it... I konw again i sound like a little bitch complaining but you know what i dont have a gun to your head forceing you to read it so if you dont like it dont read any more.... But to see him leave and go on tour for months on end and even maybe moving to Nashville, Tennesse.... i just couldnt imagine it. We've been together for so long life without them is just so hard to imagine because i've never really experienced it. I dont know i just needed to vent about these things that have been keeping me contained for days and just buddled up inside of me eating me away. i just needed to set them free.
Another subject that has been killing me is the subject of my two best friends, Shane and Aku. These two guys mean the world to me and i would HONESTLY not have to hesitate to take a bullet for one of these guys. Ya a lot of people say they would take a bullet for someone, but me i realistically mean it, if i had to i would END MY life just for them to live... A few months ago one of them left for college, aku. It was one of the hardest things ever for me to do is just let go and watch him leave for Long Beach. The night b4 he left Shane, Aku, and i just sat at starbucks drinking some coffee and smoking some cigs (like we would always do for so long b4 he left) not saying one word, but rather just enjoying the company of eachother for one last time. It killed me, that night i cried and cried and cried when i got home. Me and Aku have been best friends since the 2nd grade (when we were only 7 yrs. old) and now we're 18 and 19 years old........... And now my other best friend shane is here with me and its been me and him together since aku left. Shane and I have been best friends since we were 5 years oldd. The thing is though he's in a band, with aku, and they're finally starting to hit that point in the band where there striving to get signed and now can almost taste it and while i'm SOO happy for them because its been Shanes dream since the 7th grade, i also find myself scared and sad. If they do get signed and go on a tour my only friend left will also be leaving me and i'll end up alone. And it scares me to death, the thought of being alone with no body, especially without my 2 best friends who i've had my entire life with me since i was 5 and 7 and to think of life without them... i just cant imagine it... I konw again i sound like a little bitch complaining but you know what i dont have a gun to your head forceing you to read it so if you dont like it dont read any more.... But to see him leave and go on tour for months on end and even maybe moving to Nashville, Tennesse.... i just couldnt imagine it. We've been together for so long life without them is just so hard to imagine because i've never really experienced it. I dont know i just needed to vent about these things that have been keeping me contained for days and just buddled up inside of me eating me away. i just needed to set them free.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Where life is going
Prerelease- I know that not many people will read this, this is something for me to vent to about things that are bothering me.
Tonight me and my best friend shane watched a movie and after before i took him home we made a stop to just stop and think about things, mainly pertaining to girls, career, life, and religion.
While we were talking i started to think about where my life is going, and as scary as it is i found myself scared to death. To people on the outside it may seem like i have everything together and my lifes going perfect, but in reality its not. People think oh well Eric is on his way to becoming a firefighter and is taking all his classes and social life is going quite well. But in reality its not quite that.
Lately becoming a firefighter i have found out is going to end up being SOOO much harder then i could have ever imagined. Thousands and thousands of people are trying to become this sought after profession and that just makes the compitition that much harder. Not to mention my father (who is a firefighter and has been one for 29 years) hasn't really ever givin me much cofidence in trying to pursue it in becoming one. Every once in a while it would be nice to have him give me some words of wisdom or just let me know that he has faith in me. I know i might sound like a little bitch complaining but its the honest truth on how i feel about everything on that subject.
Tonight me and my best friend shane watched a movie and after before i took him home we made a stop to just stop and think about things, mainly pertaining to girls, career, life, and religion.
While we were talking i started to think about where my life is going, and as scary as it is i found myself scared to death. To people on the outside it may seem like i have everything together and my lifes going perfect, but in reality its not. People think oh well Eric is on his way to becoming a firefighter and is taking all his classes and social life is going quite well. But in reality its not quite that.
Lately becoming a firefighter i have found out is going to end up being SOOO much harder then i could have ever imagined. Thousands and thousands of people are trying to become this sought after profession and that just makes the compitition that much harder. Not to mention my father (who is a firefighter and has been one for 29 years) hasn't really ever givin me much cofidence in trying to pursue it in becoming one. Every once in a while it would be nice to have him give me some words of wisdom or just let me know that he has faith in me. I know i might sound like a little bitch complaining but its the honest truth on how i feel about everything on that subject.
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