Where life is going

Prerelease- I know that not many people will read this, this is something for me to vent to about things that are bothering me.

Tonight me and my best friend shane watched a movie and after before i took him home we made a stop to just stop and think about things, mainly pertaining to girls, career, life, and religion.

While we were talking i started to think about where my life is going, and as scary as it is i found myself scared to death. To people on the outside it may seem like i have everything together and my lifes going perfect, but in reality its not. People think oh well Eric is on his way to becoming a firefighter and is taking all his classes and social life is going quite well. But in reality its not quite that.

Lately becoming a firefighter i have found out is going to end up being SOOO much harder then i could have ever imagined. Thousands and thousands of people are trying to become this sought after profession and that just makes the compitition that much harder. Not to mention my father (who is a firefighter and has been one for 29 years) hasn't really ever givin me much cofidence in trying to pursue it in becoming one. Every once in a while it would be nice to have him give me some words of wisdom or just let me know that he has faith in me. I know i might sound like a little bitch complaining but its the honest truth on how i feel about everything on that subject.